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Re: Hello, I must be going

My apologies. I thought I was sending my message off-list.>You mentioned
the VA. Are you by any chance a Vietnam Veteran? If so, do
>you know about the web sites where you can get in touch with old buddies
>and chat with others who may be afflicted with PTSD. That war was hell for
>all the boys caught in it.
>My son was a Marine in 1/9, H&S Co, who died at Khe Sanh on March 8, 1968.
>I recently had to find out certain things relating to his death and was
>steered to the 1/9 Metwork and other web sites. Everyone I contacted was
>most helpful and kind.
>First, I want to tell you that you that you are not unloved; God loves you
>and you are precious in His sight.
>Second, please don't give up bookbinding. If the VA won't fund courses in
>it, do what I did. Find some simple, good books. Teach yourself,with the
>help of all of us on the Book Arts List. Second hand bookstores are a
>resource, A good one for starters is Hand Bookbinding by Aldren Watson.
>When I started ten years ago, I had no opportunity to go to classes so I
>found good books, made some tools and started repairing books at the local
>library as a volunteer. Then, when I really needed to get paid, I hung up
>my shingle. I don't make a living at it (the VA is right, there) but it
>supplements my Social Security.
>Perhaps you could find something that the VA would fund education for, or
>find anything in the postal service, or something that you could do during
>the day, and in the evening follow your bookbinding dream.
>I am interested in how everything works out for you. Please let me know.
>I care,
>At 08:47 PM 7/9/99 -0700, you wrote:
>>To all friends,
>>I am depressed, and I mean very, chronically depressed, and yes I do see
>>a shrink and take my medications,
>>but nothing seems to be able to dislodge me from this hellish vortex into
>>which I am descending, path upon which
>>I doubt if I ever will be able to escape.
>>I am giving up on my dream to become a bookbinder, the VA won't approve
>>or fund my study of it, they say that
>>I would not be able to support myself if I become a
>>bookbinder/conservator.  I hate the VA; I hate myself.
>>I hate myself for many reasons, but chief among them is being naive and
>>vulnerable.  Depression has a way
>>of increasing a person's vulnerability.
>>If anyone could give me a job or paid apprenticeship, I would consider
>>taking you up on the offer and telling
>>the VA and its myopic vision to take a hike down a long road.
>>I am seriously contemplating going to law school to be an advocate for
>>people like myself who are lonely, depressed
>>and eager to become something the world seems to reject, because to
>>"them" traditional bookbinding is archaic
>>and dead.  To me it is anything but archaic, for I find real beauty in
>>watching a signature being sewn onto tapes or
>>cords, there is elegance in the movement of the needle and thread and in
>>the designs one can create, purely
>>artistic designs that no one will ever likely see.
>>Please tell me how to unsubscribe from this list.  I'd appreciate it.
>>Rommel John Miller
>>failure extraordinary,
>Betty Storz   storz@mcn.org
>Mendocino, CA
Betty Storz   storz@mcn.org
Mendocino, CA

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